The Artist’s Search for Self

Sage and Cider 12 x 16 Graphite and Watercolor on paper (add this to your collection)

We Don’t Know What We Don’t Know

One of the most conflicted facets of my adventure to become a full time artist was the tug of war between what I am drawn to create, and what the collecting public finds appealing in art. I started the I’m-Going-to-be-an-Artist journey with a truckload of conviction: studio hours were set from 8 to 5, and then I launched an art blog (2005) and joined every art group I could find. At the same time, I subscribed to art/print trade magazines to study purchasing trends by subject (still life is the most popular). I found stats about the buying habits of art collectors (searching for art on instagram, and purchases via mobile devices are growing trends amongst younger collectors in 2019) and I scoured websites for exhibit opportunities across the continent. I scrutinized popular artists with sold out shows and throngs of followers. As a card-carrying Research Aficionado, I left no stone unturned in my quest for the secret sauce to making a living as an artist.

Adding layers of pigment and then softening the edges of the background apples. (The small study for this watercolor is here.)

Slow Your Roll

When I sat down to make art marinated in all that data, my excitement to create morphed into a dizzying tea-cup amusement park ride. All the information I harvested felt like paparazzi flashbulbs, distracting me from locating a single, practicing path towards my own process. I thought I could pre-plan who I was going to be as an artist from research gathered on a notepad at my kitchen table before I began creating. Defining your style is not really an intellectual question to be answered with research, trends and logic. The revelation of who I was as a painter was at my work table, in the paints and brushes in my hands, and the art I made. You don’t find out what your style is beforehand, by thinking about it. You find your voice by making a ton of art, and your answer will reveal itself – note-by-note – in the work you produce. The crystal ball future of who you’re meant to be as an artist lies in the work you do while making the art. #practiceoverperfection

Working up from the bottom, from the roses towards the apples

Art Practice vs Art Business

A workshop instructor once warned me that painting with dreams of art collectors, and a target of brisk sales is like making art with dollar signs taped over your eyes. You’re so focused on the future outcome, you can’t make good art that’s true, and sprung from your own experiences. I think painting for accolades and praise is just as misguided. Both approaches depend on outside directives. Painting for the tastes of collectors, or painting to pad a bank account, or to win ribbons are each a platter of instructions being handed to you by others. Some people can do that very well. As a beginner, I think it’s important to keep the joy in the making, especially if you’re going to commit to creating five days a week. It’s wiser to paint what you love, to keep yourself interested. You fill the platter, and then offer it up.

One Step at a Time

You can take your Maker hat off when you’ve built a body of work, and put your Marketing hat on to look for the collectors who love what you paint. They are part of a tribe who will buy your work. You can practice writing descriptions, taking good photos, and boxing and mailing your work to your growing group of collectors. And then you can put your Maker hat back on to replenish inventory. Make first, Market second.

Another session in the evening on the couch, adding values with shading

Experiments, Rough Drafts & Artistic Adventures

Before art becomes sellable, and prior to painting subjects to win awards and praises, it’s a good idea to find yourself. If you start by painting and selling large abstracts, and then decide your heart is more attuned to miniature pet portraits, your first collectors will be disappointed at the change, and your new collectors might be weary of your wanderings. And how does an artist find their own style? By painting and making – a lot. Every project started is an experiment. Every painting has a certain amount of risk-taking, and every single one of them has a looming potential to fail. You *have* to be okay with failure. Your art might meander here, there, and everywhere at first, but with regular practice, you’ll improve immensely, and settle into a groove naturally, and find a vein of gold that will hold you there.

Be the Coach

Painting a great watercolor is not a linear step-by-step process, with directions in a textbook. Those are lessons. You can start that way, but with time and regular practice, the training wheels will come off the bike, and painting what moves you, in an open, experimental way, will be second nature. Painting in watercolors doesn’t come packed with any certainty of skill-building without regular work at it. If you need attaboys, give them to yourself. Decide – and commit – to making a lot of art, and search each finished piece for mini swatches that show evidence of advancement, rather than as a whole painting, through the lens of wishes for a Masterpiece. As a beginner, you need all the encouragement you can stash, so actively conjure the Good-Job! spot-checker in your own assessments.

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Starting to shade lights and darks – with Scout-the-Studio-Cat, disputing my choice of what’s in his spot on my lap

Cast a Wide Net

If I focused on painting just like Gustav Klimt – who I adore – I’d get really good at being a copyist of his palette, patterns and subjects. All that focus on mimicry would cover my work with a Klimt-inspired veil, and it would do nothing to construct my own style. I believe in copying masterworks as exercises – to learn solutions deployed by painters exhibited in museums (have you watched Cesar Santos do this?). Those exercises inform future approaches on your own work, and they build strong foundational skills, but that’s not the same as trying to be someone else. You’re style is already in there, fluttering around your creative heart, trying to find the door.

Where Does Your Art Come From?

We have to create our own art, from our own still life setups, our own abstract dreams, our own vistas, and our own reference photos. That’s where we find ourselves; in the plans harvested from our own experiences, feelings, memories and beliefs. Start by looking at your own photo albums, and leap into sketching ideas from there. If you don’t know where to start, and you need structure in order to launch, take a class or a workshop. If your conviction frequently wanes, find a friend to take an online course with, and meet for each session to help each other stay accountable. Getting your art supplies active in your hands will remind you that your creative-self is longing for expression. Make arrangements to open that door.

Working on a lap desk on the couch – filling a sheet on a watercolor block with shapes to paint

The Gift of Practice

Becoming good at anything takes time. It sounds like such a cliche, but being masterful the first time you sketch a self portrait in a mirror is not likely. How many times have artist friends said “I tried a [fill-in-the-blank: watercolor, linocut, charcoal, monotype] once, and it came out terrible!” Of course it did! How do you think Elton John played the very first time he sat down at a piano? If you sketched yourself in a mirror for 3 hours every saturday for twelve months, I’d bet you a box of donuts the improvement in your drawing skills would be astonishing. Artists longing to be amazing right from the beginning will fall through a trap door of disappointment, and lose the will to create – before they’ve even have a chance to make enough art to see improvements. If you sketched, painted and made drawings 6-8 hours a day, Monday through Friday for twenty years, you’d be really good at it. And that’s what most of the artists we admire have done, so it’s crazy to wish we’d get that good by painting every third Saturday for an hour or two. John Singer Sargent made thousands of sketches, drawings, oils and watercolors, all day long, every day. You have to make a lot of art, with expectations directed firmly towards bettering the last art you made, to improve. Compete against yourself. As often as you can. Capiche?

Grid drawing a floral and fruit still life, one square at a time.

All About Bonnard

Here is one last article on the Bonnard exhibit at the Tate. If you missed the series of posts where I fawned over my friend Pierre, here are links. You can peruse his beautiful paintings, check out the resource links and be inspired. His choice of subjects and his layered colors are gloriously enduring. I’m *still* thinking about his work this week.

Note: This post was propagated by reading old notebook entries written at the beginning of my artist journey. These are the words I needed to hear then, but couldn’t find at the time. So, I’m writing them now, in case they’re just the thing you need to hear too.

Thanks for stopping by. Paint something soon, and I’ll see you in the next post –

Belinda

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P.P.S. If you’re thinking about trying audiobooks, here is a link to get one free. See if you like listening while you paint. 🙂

P.P.P.S. This week, Carol Marine wrote about finding your voice as an artist. I highly recommend you check it out here.

Art Quote

Do you want to draw like Rembrandt or Degas? Simple! Just draw ten hours a day, six days a week for forty years. That’s how they did it. Ready for that? How did Monet paint those densely woven symphonies of strokes of light, weaving that luminescent Japanese bridge over the swarming lily pond? First he excavated a huge hole, then diverted a river to fill the hole, planted it with lily pads, then built a Japanese bridge over the whole thing, all at vast expense. Then he bought a boat, made a floating studio out of it and for twelve hours a day, for over twenty years, he paddled around that pond, and painted and painted until his eyes glazed over. If you want to make stuff that has Monet’s charm, have Monet’s passion, devotion, largess, sacrifice.

The techniques of Monet or Degas can be copied; their principles of design are not obscure, they can be learned. If you want them for yourself, you can have them – for a price. And the price is dearer than you may think. Not only will you have to put in at least as much time as they did in developing these same skills, all your living days, but the real price you will have paid is that you will have succeeded in becoming them, and will have missed becoming you.

Peter London – No More Secondhand Art

I’m heading to San Diego for the Artwalk in April. Come visit.

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18 Responses to The Artist’s Search for Self

  1. Judith Herring 12/03/2019 at 8:53 pm #

    Hi Belinda! I’m always so encouraged by your posts. You have a way of expressing yourself that takes my mind to new places. I’m a portrait watercolorist, exploring this medium after years of working with fabrics, figurative clay sculpture, ipad illustration, paper collage and finally, the medium I had been afraid to tackle, watercolors! I feel lucky to have discovered something that I feel so passionate about at the tender age of 75!
    You’re a born teacher, Belinda, and I thank you for sharing your knowledge and experience with us in such encouraging ways!

    Eagerly awaiting your next post,
    Judy Herring. 😍👍🎨

  2. maryliztippinmoody 12/03/2019 at 7:10 pm #

    Thanks so much, Belinda! Wonderful explanation and encouragement for continuing to do the work!

    • Belinda DelPesco 14/03/2019 at 6:58 am #

      Hi Mary Liz, Thanks for the note, and a high-five to you for super powers in your art over the next few weeks! 👩🏻‍🎨

  3. Barbara Muir 12/03/2019 at 4:00 pm #

    Wonderful post and great painting. Answer — there aren’t any. Enjoy the ride. We are who we are from minute one. I saw a portrait I did of myself at art college, so many years ago — I don’t look like the current me, but the portrait is mine, and would be today. I’ve learned a lot, but it is layers of learning over the central core that was always there. Thank you for all you do. You are a miracle in my world.

    XOXOXOXOXO Barbara

    • Belinda DelPesco 14/03/2019 at 7:00 am #

      I like that: layers of learning over the central core of who we are. My wise friend. We are always in there, aren’t we? Under the brush marks, in the subjects we choose and the colors we’re drawn to. The only answer I can push my whole weight against in this journey is to keep working. Hugs to you and grand wishes for a restful and creative Spring! XO

  4. Jan 12/03/2019 at 11:43 am #

    Your blog is so inspiring, and you advice is so sensible and down-to-earth, thank you for taking the time help others. Like many I am a perfectionist and have a fear of failure, and after a few cutting remarks from “friends” have decided not to show anyone anything that is a ‘work in progress’. An exception to that rule is a handful of trusted artist friends who can critique in a meaningful and helpful way. Now in a week or so, this cast will be off my wrist, and I can hopefully get back to making art!

    • Belinda DelPesco 12/03/2019 at 12:15 pm #

      Hi Jan, Thank goodness you’re able to gather folks who can tell you precisely what you need to hear while your work is underway. Smart move, like a brilliant sheep herder! All negative critiquers outside, and all you encouragers, come on in! 🙂 Best wishes for your cast-removal, and rehabilitation of your wrist so you can play with paint again. Your pigments have missed you, I’m certain! Thanks for your kind feedback.

  5. Marie 12/03/2019 at 9:09 am #

    I am bookmarking this one! Good thoughts!

    • Belinda DelPesco 12/03/2019 at 10:28 am #

      Hi Marie, Thanks for the feedback! Good wishes for a pleasant and exploratory journey!

  6. bjkeefe 12/03/2019 at 9:04 am #

    I’m not, at the moment, up to commenting on the meat of this fine post. I just clicked over from your email to say that you nailed the color (etc! I suppose) of the Granny Smiths — immediately upon opening the email, my mouth started watering.

    • Belinda DelPesco 12/03/2019 at 10:31 am #

      Hah! Thanks, BJK! Thank you for the compliment. 🍏 For the record, those grannies went on to become an apple pie consumed with dollops of ice cream. I bought them to take still life photos, but the results in the oven were even better. 🙂

  7. sharon estes 12/03/2019 at 8:45 am #

    I have been struggling with this very subject since I started creating again. Thank you so much for this and for ALL of your posts. Your generosity in sharing and encouragement are an amazing gift you give to us all! Heartfelt thanks 🙂

    • Belinda DelPesco 12/03/2019 at 12:06 pm #

      Hi Sharon, Thanks for your reciprocal encouragement. We are all in the same tea cup ride. So much information and direction on how to do this. We’ll link arms and take it slow and steady to tackle one creative piece at a time. 🙂

  8. Allison Weeks 12/03/2019 at 6:43 am #

    Thank you for this encouragement, Belinda. I needed to hear this!

    • Belinda DelPesco 12/03/2019 at 12:11 pm #

      Hi Allison, I’m glad the message resonated with you. I’m pretty much speaking to myself in these missives, so we are all in the same village. Bountiful luck to you in the studio. Thanks for the feedback.

  9. Paula 12/03/2019 at 6:21 am #

    Just what I needed to hear…now if I can only put it to practice…I have been in a paralyzed place art-wise for months…thank you so much for sharing❤️

    • Belinda DelPesco 12/03/2019 at 12:09 pm #

      Hi Paula, Thanks for your feedback. I wish I could guide you to your art supplies, and wrap a cloak of creative urge around you. Lock all your critics in the cupboard, seal the mouths of each expectation with duck tape, take a deep breath and just doodle for an hour. Tell your hands to reach for those supplies and don’t stop till you’ve played with pigments again.

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